It's been four days since my sleep is no longer my friend, food not longer my necessity and thoughts like storms in my mind; I pursue understanding and I run longer distances getting away from myself and still at the end of the road there I am but changing second by second, making my sorrow my fuel and my depression my enemy...
I always dream of been better, a good man but that was it just a dream, a false promise that kept telling to myself as an excuse to not face my fears, the fear of greatness, the fear of a good life, always making excuses to not be better, but I will be better because only then I can set the road for those who I love, my words are false echoes in their minds with no value but my future actions will change their path, they will not inherit my past fears and become a statistic as they were born to change the world second by second.
I see a blinking dot on my screen and seems eternal reminding me of how much time I lost and whom I lost but I will not lose her because She is not lost, she is in me and I can feel her heart bit and her restless mind, soon we will be together and the illusion of temporary happiness will disappear and we will remember who we are and our call that call that pounds in our chest reminding us of why we got here... we are not who we were and we will be who we are not.
Second by second, mile per mile, word by word the distance is shrinking and I will be everything they dreamed, I am a new man marked with scars and shadows of pain, I been made strong by the power of forgiveness and the gift of pure love, I suffered but now I hope, I cried but now I wait, everything will be better, things will change not because I desire so but because we will do so and second by second we will enjoy our lives together...
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